Faith Doesn’t Always Feel Like Confidence
I can’t believe I have gone almost the entire summer without blogging once. I shouldn’t be too surprised, I have barely had time to journal and don’t ask me the last time I was able to make it to church. This was the busiest summer, my head’s barely stopped spinning. I had conferences, a bachelorette + destination wedding, baby showers – I barely slept in my own bed the month of July. I made so many fun memories, connected with people, and truly had so much fun. Now it’s time to step into a new season. A season of both reprieve and uncertainty.
Sometimes God calls us to walk even when the destination is unclear. No path, no map, no direction or final destination. Just walking in faith … and that’s exactly what I am doing right now. For almost a year, I have felt a shift coming this fall. God wasn’t giving any hints, but He’s been preparing me. The first half of my 2025 was packed and continued to fill up, squeezing things onto the calendar between already packed days. But August–December has remained wide open, not a thing on my calendar. It feels as though it’s a blank slate with no expectations and excited anticipation of what could lie ahead.
In May, before my busy season started to gear up, I was in prayer over this time. I would like to tell you it was insightful, “your will be done” kind of prayers, but alas it was more of the “PLEASE TELL ME GIVE ME A HINT WHAT’S HAPPENING.” Not very demure of me. Thankfully, God created me as I am and I am sure He was getting a real good chuckle about the whole ordeal. His lips were sealed, but He did give me some instructions:
Social Media Fast during this time
Step away from some deeply important roles
Focus on my Health
So here I stand, the starting line of the season, still in the dark over His reasoning or purpose in it. But trying to open apps on my phone that aren’t there, discovering some important things regarding my health I wasn’t expecting, and working through things at my job that are suddenly shifting. It feels like I came up for air and just got pushed back down again. Yet, I feel at peace. It says in Hebrews 11:1: “Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” What lies at the end of this season, its purpose, I can’t see. But I do have faith that God is going to get me through it and I will be better for it.
I will be honest, I don’t have expectations from this next season. What I do have are hopes and desires of things I pray come to fruition. The amazing thing is that by not having expectations, I am able to fully surrender these desires to the Lord. He is my protector and my Heavenly Father; they are safe with Him. I don’t need to carry them around and I don’t need to look for them around every corner. I am free to bask in the sun and walk the path He is laying before me. As a Type-A control freak - this is a HUGE self-development, y’all.
I don’t know if you’re waiting on something or walking through something, but there is a difference between waiting in stillness and waiting in surrender. When you wait in stillness, you think you have given up your control, just patiently waiting for His instructions. But the second He makes a move you don’t expect, suddenly you are making a U-turn on the freeway or stalling in a parking lot. You can have patience and still hold onto that control with all your might. Waiting in surrender though? You’re sitting in the backseat of the car reading or coloring, trusting that the driver will let you know when you arrive and that He will get you there safely. Easier said than done, I know.
The very first verse I ever memorized (besides John 3:16) was Proverbs 3:5–6, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding…” and I have carried that scripture with me my entire life. Doesn’t mean I have followed it my entire life, but it’s always there. Walking into the unknown for any person is scary, but not to God. He works all things for our good. Even if things didn’t play out the way He hoped for us, He takes every detour and pothole and makes it work for OUR benefit. If God has led you somewhere, He will be faithful to carry you forward. I pray if you are reading this today, that the Lord brings you peace over whatever your situation, circumstance, or season.
“I am doing something new; it’s springing up - can’t you see it?
I am making a road in the desert, rivers in the wasteland.”
- Isaiah 43:19
“And I am sure of this: that the One who began a good work among you will keep it growing until it is
completed on the Day of the Messiah Yeshua.”
- Philippians 1:6
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The Map I Can’t See
If you’re in a season where the future feels uncertain or unclear, here’s a simple but powerful journaling activity to help ground your trust in the Lord.
Grab a journal (or even a scrap piece of paper) and draw two columns.
On the left side, title it:
“What I Don’t Know Yet”
Write down anything that feels fuzzy or unknown right now (your job situation, a relationship that’s in limbo, future hopes that haven’t yet come to life.) Let it all out. Be honest.
On the right side, title it:
“What I Do Know is True”
Next to each unknown, write a truth about God. It could be a promise from Scripture or something you know to be true of His character.
Here are a few examples:
“I don’t know where I’m going next” → “He will direct my paths.” (Proverbs 3:6)
“I feel unseen” → “The Lord sees me.” (Genesis 16:13)
“I feel like I’m falling behind” → “There is a time for everything.” (Ecclesiastes 3:1)
Take a second to reflect:
What truth is hardest to believe right now?
Where might God be asking me to take a step before I see the full picture?
“What is one small step I can take this week, even if I don’t see the whole path?”
Sometimes faith is simply putting one foot in front of the other, trusting that the Lord knows exactly where you’re going—even when you don’t.
